great answer. I always am. I'd regret it if I wanted to live a long life, but I don't.
Alcohol is a major depressant. It probably has a large affect on how you feel about everything. I'd recommend you stop, but it appears you do not want to.
"There were many ways of not burdening one's conscience, of shunning responsibility, looking away, keeping mum. When the unspeakable truth of the holocaust then became known at the end of the war, all too many of us claimed that they had not known anything about it or even suspected anything."